Random thoughts and experiences

turning the world rainbow

2006-02-25T19:10:00.000-08:00

Okay so i started my new job and I LOVE IT... except for the fact that I have to show my parents and such.. basically my new job is to demo an air purification machine in peoples homes. It's actually a really awesome job.. i'm just tired right now. well my first demo was my friends eric and jenny and i totally didn't expect them to buy one. but they did sooo yay!!!!! my second demo was my parents and i dont know.... I didnt like showing it to them because.. i love my parents dearly.. but i know they cannot afford it.. and i don't kbnow if they would actually use it. but i had to show them. so now that's over and i actually get to start showing people that i can walk into and say to myself "i do't care if you tell me you cannot afford this.. i am NOT walking out of here with that rainbow" I'm going to be great at this job. i just have to get started and i have some great leads. PLus the company really is out there to help us. tuesday i'm demoing for some of eric and jenny's friends.. a week from tuesday i'm coming BACK to annarbor and demoing for becca's parents. Sooo i'm excited

whirlwind

2006-02-02T14:50:00.000-08:00

wow.. life has been crazy. I never thought I would adapt to change this well.. but I have. First off. I've moved!!! I moved in with my aunt jan (my batty old aunt with a billion cats). Becca and I like it here.. it's nice. I quit burger king!!! that's a major plus. I DON'T REEK OF WHOPPERS!!!!! i actually smell like.... shampoo. it's a nice change! hahahahahahahha But I don't know. I'm now searching in the world of unknowns as to what to do next. i need something to smack me acrossed the face and say "do this" instead of my insides wavering between sooo many things. do i get a job and stuggle through school. do i get a loan and focus on school for a bit. Do i go to school to be a make-up artist and nail tech... do I go back into voice lessons and go after that dream. I have gotten so practical in my new adulthood. I feel as though I have let go of my dreams. What i really want. i want to go to school. And not worry about money. and take like 39847590 credits and get done in like.. 3 years and be happy and feel accomplished because no one in my family has ever made it as far as I want to go. I want to get my doctorate in Music.. but I don't even know If i will ever beable to sing as good as i once did again. I'm too focused on what has to be done now.. to focus on what I want for later. My bills have to be paid.. food has to be bought. And 386538947 credits a semester won't pay the rent. A job will. But... a job won't get me my degree. and I don't want to try and juggle both. It was too mcuh. I'd get home and barely beable to stay awake long enough to spend time with Becca. I want to chase after my dreams.... but.... what are my dreams

Moving

2006-01-21T11:18:00.000-08:00

Well, I'm moving out of my apartment. IT's truely a blessing indiguse how it happened. I'm really happy ironicly. But I'm moving in with my aunt who is this batty older lady with a bunch of cats in a house all alone. I'm sooo excited, plus... I'm going to have more money sooo YAY no more asking my mom for money. Maybe I'll even beable to get a car or something *shrugS* I don't know. but i'm happy

2006-01-17T16:48:00.000-08:00

This is me

Life

2006-01-16T18:24:00.000-08:00

Sooo things have been interesting. Work sucks to the max, to the point I'm actually going to find a new job. I know i'm going to have to deal with assholes all the time, but I don't want to have to deal with them at the point I am dealing with them while at a job that I don't even want to be at. I HATE FAST FOOD. AHHHHHHHHHH.. It was a great learning experience.. but i've learned enough, and now i'm going to move up in the world. I'm going to call Lane's tomorrow and see if they are hiring. I think i would fall over if I was able to work there. Anyways, I spent the weekend at my parents house. I really needed that. I think somedays I'm too dependent on them, but that's me. For so long it was just my mom and I. Wow.. why am I going into this like this.. the only person who reads this is dan. HI DAN!!! hahah. thank you for this weekend. I just need my family right now because I feel like a failure.

this is for you dan

2006-01-03T09:40:00.000-08:00

Okay dan. this is for you. I joined blogspot. Aren't you proud. Love you and miss you all.

on to me. I joined a gym yesturday... and now my muscle hurt.. but it's the great hurt of ACTUALLY working out for the first time since..... 8th grade. I'm proud of myself.